Goodbye? I just “broke up” with a best friend.
I just “broke up” with a best friend. (…I sent the e-mail yesterday.)Just to clear a few things up from that statement: we weren’t “involved”, we were never “in a relationship” with each other by “relationship status” standards, (we were… close,) and I don’t know if I’m completely leaving* (i.e. cutting all ties and not talking to them at all); but I felt like I had to say goodbye to something and give up on something and it’s upsetting.And… maybe that’s all you get.I’m sorry but I don’t want to go into the details.It’s not really… “over”… it’s not quite resolved, and it’s getting to be really hard for me to pin down what the details really Are and put them into concise words (…I’m not very concise).I just wanted to tell somebody,and at the same time I kind of don’t want anyone to know….though maybe I just don’t want anyone who “knows” me to know.Like most TCKs I don’t feel like I really belong or connect with most people, I don’t really trust easy either, I feel different, and I tend to keep people at a distance; that’s why I’m posting this here and am hoping that nobody minds.*I’m not moving geographically, I just feel like I need to distance myself a little. I guess there is some geographic distance between us (different countries) which, along with other factors, makes it a little hard to keep in touch, but that isn’t the root problem. It just doesn’t help. –Why is it every time I try and edit this all my line break / paragraph tags go out the window and it turns into a single block of text?…this could probably use some editing or updating now but I am with too little sleep and looks like I need to be up in the morning so I really should already be asleep.But…it’s ongoing, and I have no idea where it is now.
December 19th, 2008 at 6:47 am
*hug*
Thanks Monique, and everybody. Sorry I haven’t commented since… 3 weeks ago. I made a new post though as sort of a follow-up (http://www.tckid.com/group/overtired-andor-just-unusually-tired-follow-up-post-1-to-goodbye-best-friend/). Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays, and Season Greetings whether you have winter weather or summer weather or artificial white Christmas shopping weather (with palm trees in the background).
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