The Fetal Diaries #29: This post actually has something to do with teenager tck problems for once.
Well lets see.. Hopefully i don’t collapse into sleep while i txt this cause for once, i actually have a (i think) point in my blog.
You might already know that I, kristine, am a teenager. A tck teenager, blah blah blah.
Anyways.. I feel like i don’t have a life. Like, all i do is go to school, work.. Not enough time for myself. And being a tck, i have friends all over the world and i’m the kind of person that keep friendships going and all and so when i *do* have time for myself, i’m on msn or whatever to catch up on news.
I mean, sure, i go out to party sometimes and stuff and people may argue that i’m just being a whiner but i feel like when i’m out, i leave just when the fun’s about to start. Honestly. Like, when we had a sleepover with our jap exchange student friends, i had to sleep early and leave early cause of work. Then today, party, but had to leave early cause of work. And afterschool i’ve to go home early cause.. I’ve school the next day. It sucks. Then my mom complains about what i do when i get home cause i spend *that* time to talk to people over in sweden or the uae or something. And i’m losing sleep too. I feel like i have a bad case of jet lag. I’m always up till at least midnight before i can actually go to sleep.. Cause i’m always on my cell msn chatting with people in the other side of the world. It’s so hard to balance. But if i quit my job, what money will i use to get out of the country? It’s really my choice to work.. I just wish i had more time. I don’t care about getting exhausted or something. I always am anyways. I just miss going home at 1 am after countless hours of karaoke, food and laughter. Dammit.
I tried making myself feel better by talking to friends in calgary and getting ourselves excited by talking about what to do cause we’re going to the [drum roll] STAMPEDE!
Iunno, i guess i’ve just been having a hard time balancing keeping in touch with people, work, school and problems. I think you can tell, if you’ve been reading my previous blogs.. Lately, all i’ve been on is this slowly moving downward spiral. It sounds emo but it’s true. Maybe when summer comes, i’ll be better. Then maybe i’ll start looking for a new job that’s easier and better for me.. Okay, rant over (and i know that ended up just like my other blogs when my intention wasn’t that.. Oh well) pc’n!
May 25th, 2008 at 1:24 am
Honestly, Welcome To North America For Young People.
People there always seem to have no free time to themselves. They occupy their entire day with jobs, sports, Church, and so on. It’s interesting in a way, because it seems like they really make efficient use of their time… but it seems so contrived, sometimes. I like having free time to do other things than what everyone thinks is all important.
Besides, it’s a shame because you’re young, you should have that time, because when you’re working regularly you won’t really. The time to enjoy it is while you’re still in education and uncommitted.
Maybe change jobs? Something else you can do on the weekends instead?
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May 25th, 2008 at 10:00 am
I hate that feeling ou get, that it’s your fault. Don’t you hate those annoying people that can do every thing - social lives and A+ for everything…
I end up doing work in the morning instead so i got to sleep at like 11 and then wake up at 6.
Soory, I only have sympathy..I’m a bit rubbish at advice
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May 25th, 2008 at 12:42 pm
It’s crazy, I thought my life was hectic until I moved to north america. In the Mid East, I’d have softball. If I don’t have softball, I have field hockey. And on the weekends, I’m out for church stuff and possibly some roadtrips for hours on end. But at least I have time for a nap. And I don’t have a lot of people to worry about catching up with or anything.
In Calgary, it was slack. But then Fort Mc, this is where I got my first job and it’s driving me nuts. You won’t believe how much people ask of me.
Probably 5 people are expecting me to be at the school musical on the 31st and I said I’m going.. but now that I think of it.. I have work the next day. Dammit.
I’m thinking of a new job. Maybe when I get back from Cali so at least they have a heads up (and so I don’t have to lose pay for shopping haha)
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May 25th, 2008 at 12:43 pm
Ehh, it’s alright livia! Hey, at least you care ^^ thanks
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May 25th, 2008 at 9:31 pm
Hi Kristine,
To be honest I was exactly like you in high school… except for a brief period of time where I didn’t give a crap about school and didn’t show up… but I worked 2 jobs, went to school, studied, and that was it. I complained a bit about it but at the end of the day it was my own way of having freedom (despite being locked in by my responsibilities)…like you said to get out of the country or whatever you want…once I went to uni, everything got better…out of all the other freshmen I had control over my life, didn’t depend on anyone, and could go wherever I wanted when I wanted (although I did continue to work but I got cooler jobs because I gained a lot of experience wiht the work i did in highschool).
Uncle dan is right…North america is crazy in that way… people are always doing something and even if you have a job, if you’re not doing something with the school (sports or other extra curriculars), you’re not doing enough…
If your job is making your life hell, then quit…at the end of the day you have to decide whether the financial freedom is worth the frustration…or maybe try working a few less hours or taking off every other weekend or something like that so you can roadtrip or just hang out with people..you might just need a LITTLE bit more time for yourself. It’s stupid but when I was in high school the time it took to get to work (about 30 min by car) was actually suppperr relaxing for me…and after work I would go to the local coffee shop or hang out spot for a half hour to just sit and listen to people and do nothing. Even though I was out later the decompression time gave me the energy (and the “reward”) that I needed.
Dunno if this helps, or even applies to you but if you’re feeling like i did at one point i def get it.
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May 26th, 2008 at 3:18 am
Yeah, I was like that too…until my grades started slipping in University. like seriously, I almost flunked out, so my parents MADE me quit my job so that I can focus on studying. It really helped a lot, even though I get an “allowance” from my parents, but now my grades are better *after a MUCH needed major switch* and now I can think about getting money again.
I don’t like the fact that I mooch off of my parents, but I really have no other choice. Luckily for me, I get free trips to see my dad in China and/or Finland every year, so those are the two main countries I visit, so it’s ok
but I totally understand the no-money-no-sleep-thing. I feel ya sister!!
I agree, North America sucks that way.
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May 26th, 2008 at 12:49 pm
Stoopid crazy culture.
Huggles! I felt the same way–but it’s almost over. Senior year’s the best second semester, so just hold out for that. After that, sleep and a bad job will co-exist harmoniously (’till uni).
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May 26th, 2008 at 7:01 pm
… Is this creepy or what? Haha. The first paragraph was a summary of my life lately, only you were talking about yourself (yeah, didn’t show up to some classes for probably 2 weeks and didn’t give a crap about school because i felt i had no time for myself anymore - biggest mistake of my life so far) but yeah, i totally understand where you’re getting at.. Maybe i’ll quit after cali and get a new job..
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May 26th, 2008 at 7:03 pm
Yeah.. My parents used to lemme mooch until i got a job and they decided it was time for me to learn how to handle money (and for them to get more of what *they* want rather than what *i* want)
Yes, n. America sucks that way.
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May 26th, 2008 at 7:04 pm
Haha yeah.. Just gotta be patient eh? It’s how it works i guess.
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