Is it just me?
Hiya again 
I was just wondering, does planning on taking a holliday (that implies travelling, by plane, long distance bus, faily long car ride, etc) make you anxiouse too? I am curiouse to know if this is just my personal psycho mind playing games with me or is a general feeling?
When I compare myself to my husband, who was a first time traveller when we met, and his desire to travel to see, to see the overwhelming joy that it causes him to see new things and go to new places…and then I look at myself…
It’s funny beacuse my trips go like this:
A month before we travel, I cannot sleep properly (not that I ever really can). My heart pounds at 200km an hour, I have minus anxiety attacks, I am constantly expecting things to go wrong, cannot cope with them when they do…cry at the airport even if I know that I am going to be back in 2 weeks…get on the plane and my holliday begins…I am relaxed and it is even enjoyable for the first week…and then I start again…even worst this time…I shouldn’t enjoy this situation because it is going to be gone in a week…shouldn’t be with my friends, because I won’t see tham for a long time and it is going to be difficult to cope being away from them again…and all sorts of sadness and drama comes over me!
I mean honestly, I hate myself on holidays, you can just imagine people near me 
So, I really try hard to avoid travelling, I either move country, or I stay put.
Let me know if I am alone or not
January 18th, 2008 at 1:59 pm
Dear Kristina J. Adams,
I know the feeling…I don’t do the whole forgetting thing, but I do the obsessing and worrying about stupid things, to the point of feeling sick to my stomach.
I believe it is all about the fact that by diverting attention from what is really causing the anxiety you can cope with you issues.
If I worry about A, you can completely forget about B, because A is ALL YOU THINK about…
I don’t know if that makes sense to you?
That is my defence mechanism, and I know it the minute it starts happening, but I am happy to let it continue until I can do better :DDD
That’s the way I see it
Cheers love,
Jemz
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January 29th, 2008 at 11:50 am
Hi Jemz!
Yes, your comment was useful!
“off course you will do it only when you are well and ready”
I agree.
Sometimes I feel ready, sometimes I don’t. Hopefully with time, the “not-ready” feelings will go away.
But one day or another I’ll have to face reverse culture shock again in Brazil.
Hey, if I really do go to Argentina, I will have to speand at least 2 days in Buenos Aires. So yeah, it would be great to meet you
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