Hi everyone,

I´m in Brasilia and will be here for a couple of months and I was wondering if there are any TCKs here who would like to meet up?

=)

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Ok, so I just posted the “I want a boyfriend” entry, lol, but now I’m posting something a little more serious. It’s pretty long, so thanks to those that read it.

I was born and raised in Chile untill I was 13 years old. I turned 14 in the Philippines. When my family moved there we lived at a graduate school with an extremely international community. So I went to an international high school (actually 9th and 10th grade) with kids from all over the world. My brother and I were the only hispanics in the school. It wasn’t that big of a deal for me and soon I made great friends from Rwanda, South Africa, Korea, Indonesia, the US, Taiwan, and also from the Philippines. I still keep in touch with them.

Then for 11th grade I went back to Chile to boarding school. I hated my country and most of the people, and although by the end of that year I had adjusted again and I had made a few good friends, I left and went back to the Philippines.

For 12th grade I went to a Filipino school, I was the only Hispanic in the entire campus, and pretty much the only kid that didn’t speak Tagalog. I didn’t get to learn the language because I went to that school only for 4 months and graduated.

Then I came to the US, to Michigan, where I’m attending a Christian University. The student body is also very international and by now (my 15th month here) I have made friends (not close yet, but still…friends), and I’ve pretty much “adjusted” to this place.

Now, I say “adjusted” in quoataion marks because I’m really not sure if I actually got used to being here or I feel ok now because I’m leaving again. So..here’s what happened. Most of this year I was freaking depressed. Especially during the witner. For me cold whether is absolute hell…I can’t stand it! Anyways, besides form the weather I’ve been having serious financial issues, and I haven’t seen my family since I left the Phils 15 months ago. I’ve been working my butt off (20 hours a week) during every semester (3 so far) and full time in the summer. I have a 3.6 GPA and my teachers love me. I socialize with a lot of people, and different crews/clicks in the school know who I am, but STILL, I’ve been extremely lonely and confused most of the year. There came a point where I didn’t want to get up and I skipped all my classes for a week.

Anyways…my parents worried about me and promised to send me to Chile this summer. I’m really happy because I’ll get to see them (they’re moving back from the Philippines), my brother, and the rest of my family. As soon as I found out that I was leaving I got “well” and everything was ok. Now, on top of this, I’m not coming back to school next year but instead I’m going to Africa to work for an NGO. When this came up my mood absolutely changed and I feel HAPPY again.

I’m just really scared that I’m “happy” because I’m leaving, not because I’m truly better/less-depressed. I want to do a good job next year, and I really want to enjoy my time in Africa. I LOVE moving around, and I enjoy the part of entering a new culture. It’s the “being there” part that sucks. And I don’t want it to suck anymore.

So……are there any suggestions? Is the answer settleling down for a few years? I’m coming back to this school two years from now, so I’m not really leaving. At least I don’t feel like I am. But still, I really just want to be a happy person, I want to enjoy any place where I live, and I want to learn to love and accept any culture. I guess my main concern right now is that I don’t want to “get depressed” again when I’m in Africa. Any tips on how to get over my “depression” for good?

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Ok…so I know my “title” sounds absolutely RETARDED and desperate…but it’s true. lol

I’m 19 and I’ve never had a boyfriend ’cause my family has moved so much…and I guess I’ve never really gotten to know anyone “well enough” to think about starting a relationship. But now I’m in college, and I’m the only single girl in my close group of friends…and I always see my friends doing cute little things withe their boyfriends. They seem to know each other so well, they’re so close, and they care for each other so much….

I guess I just want to have that experience and I really want to get close with someone. It scares the heck out of me, but I want that kind of relationship.

Anyways…that was juts a very random “feeling-sharing” moment.

haha

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